My horoscope for the day, as stated in the papers. "Now is the time to do some big-picture planning. It is time to re-evaluate where you are putting your time and energy. Is it really worth all the effort when you are getting increasingly diminishing returns?"
Call me a coward for not saying this in your face. I would prefer to consider it as not hurting your feelings. Feel free to rebuke me if I am wrong, but I seldom am. I don't know what has gotten into me, but I am really unhappy about the way in which you are treating me. I bet when you are showing off your new jacket (in which I PAID 50% FOR) to your friends and colleagues, you never bothered to tell them that I forked out for half the amount. You know I am damn right. Is it because I don't deserve any recognition or are you just taking me for granted?
Since I am already bitching and ranting, I shall get everything off my chest in one go. Next, I always find that you are criticizing me for no good reason; maybe just for your own entertainment?
Examples:
-"Can you don't behind me all the time?" Ok, after speaking to my sis (Cailin), she told me that girls prefer guys to lead them or walk by their side. However, couldn't you tell me in a less annoying tone? Morever, you never gave me the rationale behind it
-"Go wash your handphone pouch!" True, I haven't been washing it lately, but again, I hate that annoying tone.
-"You have a poor sense of humour." Get your facts right. Here I am trying to entertain you and not only do you not appreciate it, you have to hurt my feelings. Well, at least i make an attempt to lighten the mood. What do you do? You can't even tell a joke to save your life (or at least I have not seen you do so)
Ever wonder why those spiritual books aren't helping? Simply because you are not content with life. You want this, you want that, and can't make up your mind. Only when you are content can you realize the meaning of life. I agree that taking up motorbiking lessons and piano lessons are good for self-improvement, but when a teacher raises her voice or seems skeptical about your ability at times does not mean that she is a bad person. Furthermore, giving you free lessons does not mean a person may be good either.
So your witty friend has hurt your feelings and made you confused? Haven't you done the same to me for more than a few times? I know love cannot be forced, but you make it seem as if you are the only one suffering in the world. Stop being EMO!
I am glad to see that you are talking a lot more. However, maybe it is a mistake from the beginning. Talking more with hurting words is definitely much worse than not speaking at all. You definitely need more empathy and try putting yourself into other people's shoes.
I am sure this post is going to have some backlash when you read it, but I really need somewhere to vent my fustrations and to pour out my feelings/emotions.
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